Lost

I am feeling a little blue. :(

I feel like I am drawing for everyone else but me. I don't feel like I am reaching my full ability. And I lost my ability to draw my own characters...well. I mean I can draw them but not well. My floor is littered with bad drawings. (I'm going to have to clean my room)

I also don't feel like I have my own style. I go on a drawing website and I see a style like mine. I CAN draw like Tsubasa, xxxHolic, and other anime, but with a visual, I just can't seem to draw on my own.

And I also want to do more creative stuff but I've never been good at writing, and drawings have always been my thing, that I thought I was the best at, but there is a girl at my school who is amazingly good at drawing REALISTIC stuff, while I can only COPY drawings that look even remotely realistic. >:P YOU SUCK!

Blech, and then if I don't get a 'A' in math this semester I will have to do KUMON more! [Insert cuss word here]

And my mom won't let me get Tsubasa 15 and Mokona (stuffed animal) and I don't want to read it on OneManga or MangaFox 'cause I don't like the sites unless I want to read stuff like xxxHolic and X, that I don't want to buy. And on top of all of that I have a cold, I have nothing to do over Spring Break, my Dad is going to Germany, my arm hurts, P.E. SUCKS, I don't want to run on Thursday in PE (I DON'T SEE YOU RUNNING PE TEACHERS!!!!!!!!), And I bent my drawing that I was going to frame. :(

Sorry about you having to listen to my rant ^_^'

Anyways on the good news, I only have one more step on my Pillow in a Quilt for school. And me and Gab- SenBonzakura-Chan are doing White Day. :) Its when you pay back the gifts from V-Day. So I am working on her present (HA, I changed what I am making for you) I just have to go to Micheals tomarrow.
Well I best be getting off now. Wow this took a half an Hour to write. I feels good to rant, I will do it more often.

Bonza-myuu don't check my post.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUCK NORRIS!!!!! (I think)

Oh and now I just remembered to do my limerick for English. Ga! Does it ever end?!?!

*rushes off to do homework with out saying goodbye*